is this an another real

When I want to watch anime, I always feel like there used to be an anime that made me feel like I could actually live in that world. But now I can't find anything like it.

Every anime I watch feels like something is missing, so I start watching another one that seems to have the thing the first one lacked. After a while, I realize that the new one is missing something else, so I start looking for another anime again.

It almost feels like I used to watch an anime that was perfect for me, beside other thing but it somehow disappeared from time line and there is fake memory . I only remember the emotion and the feeling it gave me along with other thing. hope there isn,t something or any tach that can,t do that to control people , hope i am just fuck up or mandela effect .