I'm soo done!!!

Does thees happen to you guy too or it is just me that it's a festival everyone enjoy and the you all sad, gloomy, not in mood of doing anything or aren't enjoying it anyhow?

Well it's happening to me, today is Diwali one of the biggest festival in my country and literally marked as festival of lights but I'm feeling so dark, reason? Idk myself about it

I just feel like being in my room alone with lights off which isn't ideal at all and I'm feeling so bad about myself for thinking that, idk what to do atp

-a view on this festival